Thursday, July 23, 2015

Rain Drops on Roses and...

- Logan saying "I love you mommy. You're my best friend in the whole wide world."

- Wesley's routine of eye rolls, smiles and frowny faces when she's falling asleep.

-The sound of the garage opening after 5pm (that means dad is home).

- Lying on the ground, by myself, staring at the stars. A favorite memory is sneaking down to Uncle Bill's dock in Big Bear, braving my fear of the bats, lying down in his boat, reveling in the beauty that is clear mountain air and making wishes on satellites (because I never see shooting stars).

-Finding a shirt that fits at Anthropologie in the SALE section.

- A newly discovered treat: Paleo mug brownies

- Logan singing along to my favorite Disney songs. Her favorites are "Jolly Holiday" from Mary Poppins and "Yo Ho Yo Ho (a Pirates Life for Me)".

- My relationships. I have opened my heart to more people in the last year than I have in my life time. I have some best girl friends that mean the world to me, my family relationships are finally healthy, my friendships are strong; my heart is feeling full.

- Showers! Real talk: I have a two year old and a six week old.. a shower doesn't happen every day.

- Family time.. just the four of us. I love seeing Logan smile and learn. I love how Logan adores her dad (and vice versa) . I love that Logan in concerned about her sister; "Don't forget baby sister, mama!". My life in this family of four is everything I've dreamed of.

....these are a few of my favorite things.


Monday, July 20, 2015


Today could have been an awful day; there was a lot of noise and chaos in the background as well as a flat tire and $80 gone to replace it. But there was also a lunch date with my mom, a dear friend came over to catch up, and there was lots of "I love you mom"'s and sweet baby smiles.

Choosing to rise above, see the good, and live in love is the most important lesson I could have ever learned.


Saturday, July 18, 2015

Making Memories in Rain Boots

It rained today, finally. As you can tell by my neighbors deceased grass in the background, we really need it here in Southern California. We had been out most of the day and returned home to a down pour so Rory got Logan in her coat and boots and let her splash around in the street (we live on a cul de sac so don't freak out at me). I love watching her have these special moments you really only get to have in your childhood; it fills my soul up and makes me feel like I am giving her the little things that turn in to the big things that matter.

The last month was really difficult and my little family struggled; we were in the midst of some big life changes and it was hard to see the other side in the thick of it all. Luckily, we always make it somehow. Luckily, we have each other. And luckily, we're doing okay now. But in that moment of total desperation and despair, I felt like my kids were going to get the childhood I got; homeless and not full of good memories. Not that I don't have a few good memories of laughing with my sister, beach trips with my dad and silly nights with my mom, when I look back I see a struggle; a struggle for my mom to survive with two kids, a   struggle for my sister and I to adjust to whatever persons house we were crashing at at the time. I never felt secure and my biggest fear is for my children to have to live through what I did. I know money doesn't buy you happiness, but it definitely buys a peace of mind that you'll be able to give your kids the things you may not have had.

This rain is washing away the stress of the last several weeks and is bringing a freshness to our lives. We are so blessed with two healthy girls and with each other; I truly have the best partner in life and I am so thankful. We stress over bills just like most people and are trying to make it through each day while making some little (but big) memories along the way.